THE WHY? THE WHO? of yes. no. maybe?

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Sitting here trying to start, trying to get the reasons to flow- is not as easy as i had thought...

I've looked in the mirror and I DONT see the person I had thought I would be, when I dreamt of my "thirties". I vowed to have a fit body, to be confident, be throwing house parties in an immaculate house, the best hostess, wearing a cool as fuck outfit - whilst kids frolic and my husband is throwing back scotch's, cooking with me filling the house with laughter from his ever free flowing jokes.

REALITY CHECK

Starring back at me is a woman whose broken, who doesnt know herself, but is living in a dream like state trying to figure it all out- whilst balancing the ever need to "work out" be spiritually centered, eat the right foods, still try to wear clothes that fit and yet don't, get the kids too and from school/ daycare, have the shopping done, the house clean, trying to figure out her true purpose to life and oh- the social life- its non existent. Mostly by choice- but also from an ever growing lack of confidence and social awkwardness- that has come from a complete disconnect of knowing who the fuck I am.

I look back through photos, trace back into my memories and I cant pin point when i lost me, lost me who gives a fuck attitude, approach to life. the longing to be her is heavy and full, this is my way back...

yes

• I'm a mummy of 2

• I don't have a size 6 body (id have to go to the gym for that- mmmm maybe later)

• I'm starting to live my new best life

• I'm living on the Central Coast, NSW

• I'm taking this opportunity to do something I want, that ironically brings me so much joy

• There are days, I want to pack it all and wake up in a new state, country and be a completely new person, a new me.

• I feel alone, and a little lost- and that's ok

NO

• I'm not here for the bullshit

• I don't care what people think anymore

• I don't drink coffee

• I don't think gym wear (tights and jumpers, puffers etc) is an outfit that should be seen throughout the day- unless your going to or from a workout sesh

• I don't do the whole flowy beachy boho vibe

• I don't think I'm winning at the whole "got it together mum vibe" I yell too much, sometimes I just want to have a trip to the toilet without being interrupted, I'm always trying to be better!

• I don't ever wish to move back to Sydney- but god I do miss the options of good food and the abundance of fashion options

• Money does not by style or happiness- but it can definitely aid the pursuit of both!

MAYBE?

• This will become an inspiring place for you- somewhere to find fashion tips, aspirational imagery to peruse, a place where you can find raw, relatable words- so you don't feel as alone as I have.

• A chic, whose from Sydney, doesn't get the whole beachy flowy dress vibe- can still manage to find her balance, her nook somewhere on the Coast.

• By writing these posts, creating the imagery, doing the try on's, sourcing the options, delving into mounds of inspirational imagery and having this platform I will become the confident woman I so dream of

I wasnt sure how this first post would turn out, and already towards the end and i dont even know if I've really gotten out what this is all about...

I'm sick of never finding jeans that flatter, that what's in the shops is so generic, that if your not into skin tight or you don't have a size 6 body or you want to hide your mum bod (an NOT wear a flowy dress) than IM SCREWED!

I'm sick of sitting on insta for hours looking at street style and wishing i could look that chic- and yet forgetting that you need the body first and then the $$$ to buy the designer clothes.

I'm sick of spending hours online searching for the perfect desk, the perfect cushion to add to the couch, new funky bedsheets (that aren't all in neutrals) And whilst we are on the topic of neutrals- can we just get fucking over them- there are so many colours in the spectrum lets embrace them.

YES, NO, MAYBE?

Is a place to feel seen, to read relatable raw honest and opinions on life, its a source of inspirational imagery (to look at whilst your sitting on insta, throughout the day) A source of fit guides and options for latest trends in fashion, interiors/ homewares online and in stores. A little go to for the women who don't do cookie cutter, who don't want to look like everyone else, who really want to step into life doing, wearing and living the way they fucking want to-

So to kick start: these are on my Wishlist- and for everything inspiring, check out my

Insta + Pinterest

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